Tuesday 5 February 2013
Monday 4 February 2013
Today has been a good day.....
Nice trip over town with the family. Nice lunch.
Excellent band practice this evening.
Just need Jen to start feeling better and things will be looking up.
:)
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Excellent band practice this evening.
Just need Jen to start feeling better and things will be looking up.
:)
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Sunday 3 February 2013
Tired....
Today's been tough. Mentally I'm not 'there' and there's a lot of things I feel I'm struggling with.
This band thing is starting to really get me down. I used to love playing but its slowly being sucked out of me by the 'turn down' man. Jennie and Dad are coming along on Friday to tell me whether I am actually too loud. My thoughts are that I'm OK and that Mr Turn-Down just doesn't like a bit of stage volume..... Anyway, having trusted people in the place where they need to be to judge volume (the middle of the crowd, not the front row) will be a big help and make me feel comfortable again. I just want to enjoy playing. :(
I'm not looking forward to doing the Center Parcs email tomorrow. There was a time when I'd fly into it like a dog chasing a car but my energy levels are so low and the depression is gripping..... I just want to hide away....
This band thing is starting to really get me down. I used to love playing but its slowly being sucked out of me by the 'turn down' man. Jennie and Dad are coming along on Friday to tell me whether I am actually too loud. My thoughts are that I'm OK and that Mr Turn-Down just doesn't like a bit of stage volume..... Anyway, having trusted people in the place where they need to be to judge volume (the middle of the crowd, not the front row) will be a big help and make me feel comfortable again. I just want to enjoy playing. :(
I'm not looking forward to doing the Center Parcs email tomorrow. There was a time when I'd fly into it like a dog chasing a car but my energy levels are so low and the depression is gripping..... I just want to hide away....
Saturday 2 February 2013
Antidepressants
To top it all off, in the stress and upheaval of the past 5 days, I've not been taking my pill.
Joy.
Joy.
".....White Noise and Missed Notes....."
That was how my playing was described by the 'band leader' tonight after Pride & Joy.
In constantly being told to turn down and I'm beginning to get really hacked off about it. It not like the punters are saying it, its him alone. I have no freedom of expression and I'm getting close to calling it a day.
Ps. It was in no way THAT bad a rendition. He was just trying to get me to turn down.
He succeeded. We were sounding good, driving along. I turned down and there you go, the guts, heart and soul of the band are gone. What a night.
After this week, I could really have done with a good gig. Instead, I feel demoralised, upset and frustrated.
A great end to an awful week.
In constantly being told to turn down and I'm beginning to get really hacked off about it. It not like the punters are saying it, its him alone. I have no freedom of expression and I'm getting close to calling it a day.
Ps. It was in no way THAT bad a rendition. He was just trying to get me to turn down.
He succeeded. We were sounding good, driving along. I turned down and there you go, the guts, heart and soul of the band are gone. What a night.
After this week, I could really have done with a good gig. Instead, I feel demoralised, upset and frustrated.
A great end to an awful week.
Annoyed...
Boy.
Am I feeling angry tonight.....
First, I'm glad Zachie's hand is a lot better. The little lad has been so brave. He's home for an hour and his nan let's him climb on the sofa and promptly fall off of it onto his head. :(
*sigh*
Everyone's response to poor Zachie's injury is, "Sue, sue, you have to sue." I absolutely hate the 'compensation culture' that's so evident in this country now. Hate it with a vengeance. "Oh, I was on a bus and it went into the back of a car and oh, how my neck hurts, I'll have to contact "InjuryArseholes.com" for my lovely compensation......." Bunch of frickin' maggot grab-asses.
The wife and I are pretty much in the same page, I think. We really want to give Center Parcs the opportunity to make amends, particularly to the kids, for their completely ruined holiday. Nothing will 'compensate' for the pain caused to Zach but a gesture of good will from the company, will go a long way to showing how sorry they are that my boy had to suffer like he did.
Anyway, letter to Head Office on Monday.
Am I feeling angry tonight.....
First, I'm glad Zachie's hand is a lot better. The little lad has been so brave. He's home for an hour and his nan let's him climb on the sofa and promptly fall off of it onto his head. :(
*sigh*
Everyone's response to poor Zachie's injury is, "Sue, sue, you have to sue." I absolutely hate the 'compensation culture' that's so evident in this country now. Hate it with a vengeance. "Oh, I was on a bus and it went into the back of a car and oh, how my neck hurts, I'll have to contact "InjuryArseholes.com" for my lovely compensation......." Bunch of frickin' maggot grab-asses.
The wife and I are pretty much in the same page, I think. We really want to give Center Parcs the opportunity to make amends, particularly to the kids, for their completely ruined holiday. Nothing will 'compensate' for the pain caused to Zach but a gesture of good will from the company, will go a long way to showing how sorry they are that my boy had to suffer like he did.
Anyway, letter to Head Office on Monday.
Monday 28 January 2013
Center Parcs: Dangerous Radiators
Well......
Day one, hour one, minute twenty (approx)........
Zachary, my beautiful, happy, smiley bundle of fun, has burnt his little hand on the radiator. And I mean 'burnt.' I'm sure if we look closely, his skin will be stuck to the feed pipe somewhere.
The thermostat was set at 25 degrees and the radiator and pipes were absolutely boiling hot to the touch.
To say that I'm fuming, is an understatement. I'm not going to make a fuss while we're here as I want the kids and everyone else to enjoy the rest of the holiday. I don't want them to potentially see me lose my rag because let me tell you, if I approached them to complain, and I get the standard 'British' response..... I'll flip my freakin' lid, right there, right then.
I'll take it up in writing to Head Office when we return. Its all logged here, as we had two of the on site nurses come and wrap his little hand up. We'll see what happens.
On a different note, the mattresses here are lovely. :)
Day one, hour one, minute twenty (approx)........
Zachary, my beautiful, happy, smiley bundle of fun, has burnt his little hand on the radiator. And I mean 'burnt.' I'm sure if we look closely, his skin will be stuck to the feed pipe somewhere.
The thermostat was set at 25 degrees and the radiator and pipes were absolutely boiling hot to the touch.
To say that I'm fuming, is an understatement. I'm not going to make a fuss while we're here as I want the kids and everyone else to enjoy the rest of the holiday. I don't want them to potentially see me lose my rag because let me tell you, if I approached them to complain, and I get the standard 'British' response..... I'll flip my freakin' lid, right there, right then.
I'll take it up in writing to Head Office when we return. Its all logged here, as we had two of the on site nurses come and wrap his little hand up. We'll see what happens.
On a different note, the mattresses here are lovely. :)
Sunday 27 January 2013
Edward Heath
Prime Minister (Tory but we wont hold that against him. :)
According to Icke, he was a "Paedophile child murderer." He claims that Savile used to provide children for him and that Heath used to take boys out on his yacht, molest them and throw them overboard.
o_Ó
Serious, serious allegations and most importantly, ones made while Heath was still alive.
No legal case was brought against Icke or the others who've claimed these things happened. Heath was made aware of the allegations and did nothing.
Why?
According to Icke, he was a "Paedophile child murderer." He claims that Savile used to provide children for him and that Heath used to take boys out on his yacht, molest them and throw them overboard.
o_Ó
Serious, serious allegations and most importantly, ones made while Heath was still alive.
No legal case was brought against Icke or the others who've claimed these things happened. Heath was made aware of the allegations and did nothing.
Why?
Center Parcs, Longleat
We're off tomorrow.
:))))
The kids are really looking forward to it and so am I! My amazing wife has worked so hard, through a nasty virus, to get us all packed and ready to roll. Thank you love, you really are an amazing wife and mum. x
Sharks and Dolphins is the game of choice for Joshie as soon as we hit the pool. I can't wait to take him outside at night, hopefully we'll have clear skies, the stars are beautiful out there, minimal light pollution.
:)
:))))
The kids are really looking forward to it and so am I! My amazing wife has worked so hard, through a nasty virus, to get us all packed and ready to roll. Thank you love, you really are an amazing wife and mum. x
Sharks and Dolphins is the game of choice for Joshie as soon as we hit the pool. I can't wait to take him outside at night, hopefully we'll have clear skies, the stars are beautiful out there, minimal light pollution.
:)
David Icke
Where to begin....
Was trolling around his website and some of the claims he makes about certain people are incredible.
Edward Heath was a 'paedophile child murderer......."
The Queen is a 'Shape-shifting' reptilian?....????
His detailed account of the actions and life of Jimmy Savile was fascinating and horrendous at the same time. David's explanation of how Savile came to be linked to so many, extremely high profile people, in my opinion, is entirely plausible.
How frightening's that?
Check out http://www.davidicke.com/articles/child-abuse-mainmenu-74/74874-jimmy-savile--doorway-to-the-cesspit
I find it scary that the possibility of some, part or all of this is true.
What a world we live in.
However......... The Reptilian thing........ Sorry man, not feeling that at all.
Was trolling around his website and some of the claims he makes about certain people are incredible.
Edward Heath was a 'paedophile child murderer......."
The Queen is a 'Shape-shifting' reptilian?....????
His detailed account of the actions and life of Jimmy Savile was fascinating and horrendous at the same time. David's explanation of how Savile came to be linked to so many, extremely high profile people, in my opinion, is entirely plausible.
How frightening's that?
Check out http://www.davidicke.com/articles/child-abuse-mainmenu-74/74874-jimmy-savile--doorway-to-the-cesspit
I find it scary that the possibility of some, part or all of this is true.
What a world we live in.
However......... The Reptilian thing........ Sorry man, not feeling that at all.
Build Your Own Effects Pedals.
I bought the kits from Poodle's Pedal Emporium in the UK. Great service!
Here's some more pictures.
The top image is a Deep Blue Delay clone (Mad Professor), an awesome sounding delay. I'm waiting for the Letraset to finish the enclosure, I want to lacquer over the top of the paint and Letraset for durability.
The bottom three images are a Phase 45 with Univibe mod. I'll Letraset the enclosure as well but as I've already lacquered and polished the pedal, we'll have to see how the letters sit on top....... :/
The builds are really simple, like doing a jigsaw really. The only difficult part for me on the first build, was the switch and jack wiring. A careful internet search of multiple sources soon cleared any hesitancy.
For £120, I've built nearly £600 worth of boutique pedalry........
Win.
Check the kits out, they really are superb http://pedalparts.co.uk/
Here's some more pictures.
The top image is a Deep Blue Delay clone (Mad Professor), an awesome sounding delay. I'm waiting for the Letraset to finish the enclosure, I want to lacquer over the top of the paint and Letraset for durability.
The bottom three images are a Phase 45 with Univibe mod. I'll Letraset the enclosure as well but as I've already lacquered and polished the pedal, we'll have to see how the letters sit on top....... :/
The builds are really simple, like doing a jigsaw really. The only difficult part for me on the first build, was the switch and jack wiring. A careful internet search of multiple sources soon cleared any hesitancy.
For £120, I've built nearly £600 worth of boutique pedalry........
Win.
Check the kits out, they really are superb http://pedalparts.co.uk/
Letraset Lettering
Just ordered some 3mm white Letraset. It's rub on, so we'll see how it performs.
Hopefully, it'll be perfect for effects pedal labelling.
:)
If it's anything but, I'm sure I'll rant about it on here.
:))))
Hopefully, it'll be perfect for effects pedal labelling.
:)
If it's anything but, I'm sure I'll rant about it on here.
:))))
Saturday 26 January 2013
Guitar Effects Pedal Building
A new hobby???
:))))
Another hobby??? Now you're talking.
Germanium Fuzz Face.
:))))
Another hobby??? Now you're talking.
Germanium Fuzz Face.
I've completed a Phase 45 with Univibe mod as well but I haven't uploaded the pictures yet.
Also, nearly finished a clone of the Mad Professor 'Deep Blue Delay.' I'm just finishing the enclosure. Pics to come. :)
Living with ME
The guilt. The feeling of inadequacy. The feeling that you miss out on all the good bits that life has to offer.....
Welcome to my daily life.
If it weren't for the wonderful family around me and the love and happiness they bring, life would be very difficult.
Be happy and content with what you CAN accomplish. Don't be depressed over what you have no control over.
OK, I can't take my boys to the park everyday but I can lie in bed and watch trains on my BlackBerry with my oldest boy, his thoughtful nature and near-encyclopedic knowledge of Joshie when it comes to steam engines makes me smile. I can play in the hallway for short periods with my youngest, listening to him laugh and run up and down, makes my day.
Focus on the amazing things that happen EVERY day. :)
Welcome to my daily life.
If it weren't for the wonderful family around me and the love and happiness they bring, life would be very difficult.
Be happy and content with what you CAN accomplish. Don't be depressed over what you have no control over.
OK, I can't take my boys to the park everyday but I can lie in bed and watch trains on my BlackBerry with my oldest boy, his thoughtful nature and near-encyclopedic knowledge of Joshie when it comes to steam engines makes me smile. I can play in the hallway for short periods with my youngest, listening to him laugh and run up and down, makes my day.
Focus on the amazing things that happen EVERY day. :)
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